Bestie

Felizia has grown to become one of my very best friends. I can sincerely talk to her about anything at all and I know that she will give me honest advice to HELP me but she will also let me know if and when I've crossed a line.

We had a really awesome talk tonight.

She let me know that she feels that Billy can be an asshole. And that because I know this, it sometimes bothers me because I know that I don't deserve that. She told me I deserve to be happy and have someone who can always make me happy, not just someone who is happy when the times are good.. She says that I deserve that short-term dating experience I've never had because there is just nothing like those first-date jitters and all the butterflies it gives. she agreed with me on the whole Mel and Billy txting thing is not only a little strange, but crosses the line in terms of her job completely and utterly. And because this is not the first time she's done this, she is well aware of it. She reassured me on a lot of things that I've been feeling- like that if Billy and I are fighting like we're together we might as well be because at least we'll get the pros of being together and not just the cons. And if we get back together and things don't work out then maybe our separate ways are in order.

Idk, I just know I really need to talk to him about this because if I don't, thing will never get any better.

I'm so glad I can talk to someone as awesome as Felizia, she's really someone I hope I can learn from and I value every second I spend talking to her. And she makes me laugh like no other!

Thanks girl, you're my rock.