Hope?

Up until this point I didn't really think there was much hope left for Billy and I to be together. Ever.

I strongly dislike one of his friends... to the point at which I can't even stand to be around him. That's a lot of dislike coming from me- I have virtually no enemies (for good reason) and I don't hate anyone (also for good reason)...so when I don't like someone to such a degree...it is ALWAYS FOR. GOOD. REASON.

I could write a book about this person and about how I loathe his representation of himself as a person and everything he stands for.. and how often he had taken advantage of, disrespected, and been mean to me. But what good would it do?

Anyhow. A friend of mine today kind of 'showed me the light' so to speak- I have two choices in this situation with Billy and there's no escaping it: 1) accept the fact that this friend will be in the situation (and maybe even give him a taste of his own medicine) or 2) move on. While both choices really kind of SUCK, it's really all that's going to happen because I will not ask/tell Billy to stop being friends with anyone, ever... and Billy's not going to. Soooo.


While my friend did help me see this, this person also said that Billy's friend had good right to be mad at me because I took some of Billy's time away from his friends. This is ridiculous. ANY relationship will take time away from friends! Not in a bad way, it is simply because the time is redistributed. Billy wasn't ever FORCED to be with me, or to talk to me or call me or anything of this. He made his own decisions. sure we spent a lot of time together, but it was never one-sided. As far as I am aware of, we BOTH wanted to be with each other when we were together. And because this friend had a problem with it? Not my fault, he should have said something as far as I'm concerned and we could have dealt with it then. I'm sure he's quite happy now that he's got Billy all to himself. Hah.

I, on the other hand, have completely justifiable reasons for being mad at Billy's friend. No I'm not going to list them (there's too many) but like i said: shown disrespect to me (with no provocation or motive), been rude to (again, no provocation), has taken advantage of me multiple times (no, not sexually).

SO! If Billy and I decide to get together, I am going to learn to deal with the asshole he calls his friend. No, I will NEVER like this person or have respect for this person, but if I want to be with Billy I may have to deal with it.

That was my little rant. I think I'm done. :)